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Insane Sanity

Only you had the power to drive me to this state of mind-- this sweet insanity. I had pleaded that you didn't, that you leave me alone and let me be as I once was. But now that I dwell here, I find myself no longer rebelling. I have ceased all fighting, all desperation and ill-attempts to not slip into my own private farce world.

It's not nearly as horrible as earth's vast majority incorrectly assume it to be. As opposed to my previous life, it is a haven. I no longer wish to fit in-- to fit into the suit of normality that pure-pressure drives you towards.

So, I thank you. The sense and desire for vengeance upon you no longer courses through my veins. I no longer feel the need to settle the score. I believe the only score needing settlement is the favor that I now owe you for obliviously shoving me so far, so harshly into this. . . this, insanity, if you will.

Perhaps you will join me, some day. I see how you wander around aimlessly, through my new vision, I see you. I silently watch you dwell in a sorrow that you dare not verbally share, not with any human being. Perhaps I will offer you the option of joining me here, and maybe you will come without a dispute.

Just join me, please. As I escape this insane excuse of a sane universe.

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mental illness.

Thu Oct 8, 2009, 5:36 PM
What's your mental illness?

ANOREXIA

[ ] you have dry skin.
[ ] you eat 1 meal.
[ ] you're very weak.
[x] you hate your body.
[ ] you starve yourself.
[x] you have low self esteem.
[ ] you use laxatives.
[ ] you need to be more skinny.
[ ] people always say you're skinny, but you think fat.
[ ] people think you are too skinny.

total: 2

ADHD (ATTENTION DEFICIT/HYPERACTIVITY DISORDER)

[ ] your mind is all over the place.
[x] you are hyper most of the time.
[ ] you barely pay attention to anything.
[ ] you cannot cooperate with people well.
[ ] you seem to never sit still.
[x] you talk all the time.
[ ] you need attention 24/7.

total: 2

BIPOLAR DISORDER

[x] you can act wild at times then the next day you are depressed.
[x] you are very irritable.
[ ] you barely get any or no sleep.
[ ] you are anti-social.
[x] you have very high self esteem at times.
[ ] you are abusing alcohol, drugs, or sex.
[ ] you have thought of/attempted suicide.

total: 3

BULIMA NERVOSA

[ ] you throw up all of your food.
[ ] you throw it up even when you don't feel sick.
[ ] you have no control over how you eat.
[ ] you use laxatives.
[ ] you have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
[ ] you always say you are fat, when you aren't.
[ ] people think you are way too skinny.

total: 0

CONDUCT DISORDER

[ ] you are a bully.
[ ] you threaten other people.
[ ] you often find yourself in fights.
[ ] you have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
[ ] you are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[ ] you have raped/molested someone.
[ ] you destroy property on purpose
[ ] you always lie.
[ ] you stay out all night.
[x] you have ran away from home.

total: 1

DEPRESSION

[ ] you find no hope in your future.
[/] you find no longer excitement over the activities you used to love.
[ ] you always find yourself around the house or in bed all day.
[ ] you can be/are anti-social.
[x] you have low self esteem.
[ ] everything bad that happens is always your fault.
[ ] you always seem to be weak or have physical features hurt.
[x] you are failing school.
[x] you have thought of/attempted suicide.
[x] you have ran away from home.

total: 4.5

OCD (OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER)

[ ] you have daily rituals.
[x] you have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
[ ] you have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[ ] you have to keep things in a certain order.
[ ] you have harmed yourself.
[x] you are afraid you will get a std, aids, or any kind of germs.
[x] you have to check some stuff over again.

total: 3

PTSD (POST-TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER)

[ ] you repeatedly have flashbacks of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[x] you repeatedly have dreams of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[ ] you sometimes think the event will happen again.
[x] you feel highly uncomfortable when remembered/remembering the event.
[ ] you can be/are anti-social.
[ ] you have lost interest in the things you used to love.
[ ] you have not had a lot of sleep lately.
[ ] you worry about dying at a early age or dying at all.
[x] you can have angry outbursts.
[/] you act younger than your age.

total: 3.5

SCHIZOPHRENIA

[ ] you often have hallucinations.
[ ] you have strange, unusual dreams or thoughts.
[ ] you can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[x] you think people are always staring or talking about you.
[ ] you have extreme anxiety or fearfulness.
[ ] you have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite sex.
[ ] you do not take care of your hygiene like you should.
[/ sometimes] you are very shy.
[x] you often talk to yourself.

total: 2.5

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Hello gorgeouuus! I've moved accounts to ~Atelophobic: I'd greatly appreciate if you could continue watching me there. <3 <3

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Moved to ~Atelophobic: please watch me over there instead! <3
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thanx for the :+fav:
:heart: & :hug:

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Welcome. :]

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Thank you for the fav on Jack Sparrow Teaches Sex Ed, but I specifically say in the description to NOT fav it =) I also very much appreciate comments much more than favs, because it's more constructive.

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COMMISH ME PLEASE? =3 You set your own price! [link]
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Ah, I'm sorry. I just had to fave it on dA before I could go home to my own computer and bookmark it there. :]

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=) S'alright

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COMMISH ME PLEASE? =3 You set your own price! [link]
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Thank You soo much for the fav.^^
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<3

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Thank you! <3

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